Friday, December 30, 2005

sometimes the idea seems to become more and more welcoming because you find that there are actually people who are thinking of exactly the same thing.

however it could be due to different grounds that allowed this idea to cross their minds.

one thing in common is that it is really pointless.

pointless in a sense that you see yourself getting nowhere and don't see any reason why you should still be carrying on with it.

when you think about it, you get discouraged even further or perhaps lose the motivation to persevere and strive.

you bombard yourself with questions that you yourself don't even know how to answer and this sort of worsened the whole situation.

you talk to your friends who share the same thoughts and decide that it is really useless but at the same time, you don't want to give it all up because you have some feelings attached to it.

life without it would be boring, uninteresting and what we call, 'no life' albeit the fact that there is no more need to push yourself nor don in self misery because you don't seem to do anything that is useful.

you feel disappointed in yourself because you don't usually do things halfway through.

people encouraged you, persuaded you, tried to talk sense into you but all of them did not seem to change your mindset once the feeling comes back and you feel like giving up again.

confused you may be but you don't know until when are you going live with this undecided decision that seems to be daunting your mind.

the 'you' i'm talking about is no one but myself.